Brad and I are kinda in a stressful place right now. Luckily not with our marriage, but we've got a lot going on, some decisions we need to make, basically just life!
Last night I was particularly stressed, and I'm not a good stressed out person. I get cranky (crankier), impatient (more impatient), and all those other bad adjectives. We went to bed late due to a dog related incident (would anyone like a particularly snuggly and affectionate dog that just happens to shed?) and I just couldn't sleep. I envisioned myself laying there for hours and then envisioned myself getting up to fold laundry and clean. Luckily that didn't come to fruition. So I prayed. I have to admit, my prayer life is lacking and I wish I was better. But last night I just prayed for God. When I pray I rarely ask for things for myself. Last night I begged for things for myself. I begged for His guidance, His strength, His mercy and a big whopping dose of His patience.
And then I felt it. I felt Him taking over and me allowing it. I felt myself relax and I was almost immediately asleep. I woke up this morning and I'm sad to say, I didn't think anything of it. While driving to work I was struck by it while I was thinking about what my day will hold. And another peace filled me. It was amazing to have that peace, just when I needed it.
I've had a favorite benediction since I was a kid. I get goosebumps everytime it is said in church. I give it to all of you today.
The Lord bless you and keep you;
the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you;
the Lord lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace.
Numbers 6:24-26 ESV