Actually, she didn't, but I wish she had. One of my friends uses song titles as the titles for all her blog posts. I think that is a great idea, I stole it from her today (not the title, but the idea).
Today is a crappy day. There is just no other way to say it. C.R.A.P.P.Y. And it's only 9:00. Yesterday I played with the idea of taking a vacation day today. God put that reason in my head for a reason. He knew I would think it was a crappy day. But me, being the person I am, decided I shouldn't waste it.
Go ahead, you know you want to say it. Here, I'll say it with you.
Sometimes I wonder if what I have done is so bad. Most days I know it is, but all days I know that regardless what I have done, He is not punishing me. Even if I think it feels that way.
I'm not trying to illicit pity. But if you want to shower me with gifts, chocolates, and flowers, who am I to stop you. No, really, I won't stop you. Honestly.
But there are some days I just want to feel like a normal person. And the things I want are normal. I want to be a mom. I want to pick up my own screaming child and console them. I want to be the one that they want when they are sick. I want to be a better wife. The one my husband deserves. I want to have a smaller butt.
I think it is hard for people to truly empathize with the issues of others. As much as we try, we cannot.
And believe it or not, I am truly happy for my friends that have the things I want. I don't look at them and harbor jealous thoughts. But today, I just want to be happy for me. And I'm not there yet, but I'm hoping.