A time for all things

One thing I wasn't prepared for in becoming a parent is the internalization of fear and pain.  I never thought hearing or reading of another child's death or suffering would cause me to weep as uncontrollably as I do.  I have always had a hard time with children who suffer, but since I had little boy I literally cannot read the article, or watch the news story.  No one warned me.  No one prepared me.  No one told me that I would worry every day that I may not see him grow up. 

I wonder if every parent has that worry.  In these uncertain times I wonder how we can't. 

Given what happened last week, how can we not?

Today is little boy's birthday.  It's a time for celebration and letting him eat more sugar than ever before.  It's a time for me to take the day off work just to spend time with him. 

I know all parents hugged their children tightly upon hearing the news Friday.  My husband and I often say, "if nothing else, he will know he is loved." 

In this time of uncertainty - isn't that the greatest gift we have to give? 

Little boy, even when things don't go according to plan, I will love you.  I will mess up many things. I will do many things wrong. But I pray you will always know how much you are loved. 

It's all wrong!

Imagine my surprise when I got home last night and not only had the kid been bathed, twice, but they actually had fun while I was gone. 

I don't like the sound of that.